I just got home, and it's been a solid 12 hour day...

...But I can honestly say that I find nothing more rewarding than working in the sciences. I just started my postbacc program, and I am working with/under many a postdoctoral student. These folks are incredibly intelligent and probably have a decade more of experience than me in the sciences. The adjustment so far has been rough, and at times I even feel like I'm being hazed into this foreign world. But I still find it incredibly worth it, and even exciting and enjoyable. It's constantly evolving and you could even be a part of positive change.

Bring on the kinases and oncoproteins.

It's been a while...

In a time of drastic change it is the learners who inherit the future. The learned usually find themselves equipped to live in a world that no longer exists.

-Eric Hoffer

I have long believed that the only state of order that can exist in our lives is disorder itself(entropy, holler). Change happens constantly--we all know this. So if this is the case, if I embrace this fact, why does serious change still nauseate me? It's not that I don't know how to adapt or don't want to. In fact, when my life has been too repetitive and constant for too long, I get annoyed and bored. You would think after 24 years of this, I'd be unfazed.  Familial chaos, loved ones perishing and countless other maladies fetter my life right now--I suppose things are only as bad as you let them be. 

It seems that I am still learning (to adapt). 

Until then, I may continue to be a bit absent.